FIN.
should we have even tried this? i’m always insecure now, the irony is that the reason you left me has now ceased from your mind but now is forever in mine. i tell you everything and yet it’s rare you have a real, genuinely honest moment with me. i feel like we’re on the most uneven playing field ever and everything on the field has been created to give you the advantage. i used to be fine with that, whatever made you happy but i’m beginning to realise that i’m not happy. you don’t seem to mind if i’m happy anymore or not. it’s ok as long as it works well for you. this scares me. this isn’t who you used to be. you’re different and i’m changing. i can tell. because the one thought i never ever used to think was possible for me to consider is now lingering like a shadow in my mind: is this worth it?
i just need your actions to speak now and tell me what i should do, so i’ll wait but know, god know, i’m watching and considering. you’re the one who will make up my mind, so think carefully now, how do you want this to be?
- Write.
- Write more.
- Write even more.
- Write even more than that.
- Write when you don’t want to.
- Write when you do.
- Write when you have something to say.
- Write when you don’t.
- Write every day.
- Keep writing.
by Brian Clark